Oh Charlie

I never knew my love could increase this much. I never knew I had these kind of feelings inside of me. My little baby boy is perfect, sweet, loving, smiley, and oh so yummy. I thank God for him every day, and the joy he brings in my life. When things are going wrong, or I'm feeling stressed out or angry, one enormous smile from Charlie makes everything else melt away. God is so amazing and good to us to give us the gift and blessing of our children. 

I wouldn't mind if Charlie stayed a baby forever, just looking at me with those perfect eyes. No one else looks at me the way Charlie does. Faith did, at one point, before I had a chance to ever yell at her or hurt her feelings. Charlie's the only one who doesn't judge me. Not that I feel people are judging me all the time, haha, but I'm just saying that it's a special feeling knowing that someone relies on you, thinks the world of you, and has never been hurt by you. 

Now I know why there is a special bond between Faith and her Daddy. And I'm thankful for that just as much as I am for my special bond with little Charlie. 

I should probably be cleaning up or doing something productive around the house, but sitting here at the computer nursing Charlie is one of my favorite things to do. He falls asleep, and I get to hold him still. I'm trying to soak up every last minute of him being a baby because it seriously goes by way too quickly. I hardly remember those moments with Faith with much clarity anymore. He will never be this small again, and neither will Faith, which is why I have to force myself to stop and remember that about her, as well.

Helloo blog world.

So, umm, I can't believe I finally have a blog. Part of me feels silly, and part of me feels excited. Why not, right? Why not start a blog! Now I can share all kinds of opinions and not feel like I'm pressing them on anybody by writing on facebook. Actually, I probably won't have much time to spend on here since I have two little ones at home with me all the time.I wonder who will ever even read this? 

I'm starting a new Bible study called "Tour of Duty," by Sara Horn. I am super stoked about starting this particular one because it is an online study with the author and over 100 other women. In a few weeks, I am going to start this same study on base here. Maybe it will be cool to share my thoughts on deployment and being a military wife. 

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength."